Elder Miller Smith

Hey family what is going on back in H town? haha

Another week has passed and gone here in the inferno of Apatzinranch. I have had a lot of feelings over the past couple of weeks.  A lot of deep pondering and prayer. I am in that point in my mission where I really need to make a decision in who I want to be.  Who I want to become. Yeah,  I can be a missionary who only goes through the motions and just serves his mission,  or I can actually become a MISSIONARY.  This is what I want to be.  I truly want to be a modern day warrior like Ammon. So, I have been working on this the past week.  Obedience to everything. One that is very hard for me is waking up.  I hate waking up in the morning.  But this week, I have been out of bed right at 7.  My whole mission I have never slept in, but I have got up at like 7:05 or 7:10 not a big deal right?  Wrong this is not being obedient. If I want to change and become the man that the Lord wants me to be, I need to show him that I want to change.  As I try to do so, He will see my effort and He will help me change.  Through Him I know that I am going to become that man I should be. There is no doubt in my mind, no doubt.

Last night, I had a experience I will never forget never. We were with one of our investigators. His name is Jesus. We found him last week and he has just been progressing a ton. He has already read all of the first book of Nephi and understands it, amazing. We were always so excited to visit him and to watch him progress. He has been on drugs his whole life but really has a desire to change. I cant tell you everything about him though, I will after my mission because it’s not safe for me or him. But last night we were teaching him. We were teaching the 3rd lesson everything was going great until we got to baptism and then everything just went down hill. I can’t express in words how the rest of this lesson went because my words written are really weak.  They are not like my spoken words. But he has some different beliefs and expressed all of them and then started criticizing us and told us that we were only kids and we knew nothing of things that were spiritual and that we were men of no faith. He said a lot of this stuff because we asked him to ask God if these things were true, like the Book of Mormon.  He thought it was wrong to ask God and that God would give us the answers even if we didn’t ask. I was saddened that this son of God who thought he knew so much of God and things spiritual but believed that it was wrong to ask God for answers. He kept and bashing on us. In this moment, I was totally overtaken by the spirit.  I was filled so much with the spirit that I was just like quivering, and didn’t know what to say.  But I knew if I opened my mouth I would.  I did and in that moment I was given power beyond my own ability. Jesus was in mid sentence and I told him to be silent in command form. Then the words just flowed out of my mouth after this. He was struck silent by the spirit and couldn’t speak. I felt like I was just sitting there but my mouth was moving and talking. I was being used as instrument in the Lord’s hands.  I know and the spirit was speaking through me and these words were very strong and direct. I don’t know the exact translation but I told him he was a son of God and God wanted to help him but he has to do his part. The arm of the Lord is always extended but we have to reach out for it. Then I told him that he was full of pride and that if you can’t go to your Heavenly Father and pray for help because of our own pride, then damn you to hell. I spoke for like 5 minutes straight this is just a little summary.  I have never been so overtaken by the spirit in my life.  This experience I will never forget.  I know that sometimes you need to be very very direct with these people but only if you are prompted to. 

Yeah my times up.  I love you guys a lot.  with all of my heart. 

Next week I don’t know when I will email because I might have changes. Crazy how fast time goes by.  It feels like yesterday that I got here in Apatzingan. I know its because I have been working hard and been busy at the Lord’s work.

Mom can you send me a gospel principle book in English? I have one in Spanish but I want one in English.

Dad can you do me a big favor. I want my line of authority but I don’t have it.  Can you research this for me and send it to me? I would be so grateful.

Thanks love you guys